I seem to have a love-hate relationship with blogging.
I am not unique; I know others feel this way, too.
Sometimes I read so many posts by others, that I think I am slogging
Through them, wishing I was being more productive and true
The truth is, I love blogging, but it is very time-consuming
and I don’t always know if I am using
my time well.
Time will tell.
I look at others’ success,
my blogs are a mess.
But then I wonder, who am I fooling?
Do I want people to start drooling
at the sound of my name?
Do I really want that type of fame?
I like moving at my own pace.
In time, others will recognize my face
and my talents
and my desires
and my hopes
and my dreams
and my goals
and then fires
will be lit
and books won’t be burned
is filled with holes
I won’t be spurned
for abandoning this blog
Because I won’t.
I am still learning about myself as a blogger.
I don’t consider myself a newbie any longer.
But this blog has no readers, and
I hate that I get caught up in numbers and stats.
Face it, facts are facts.
I have few readers because I am new, and don’t spend time marketing this blog. I don’t like screaming NOTICE ME.
I am like a little ant who is dead
and waiting for other ants to carry me off…
But this is not how blogging works.
Or life, either…
I cannot compare myself to bloggers who have been around for years.
I will reduce myself to tears.
I don’t have any fears or dreams
that make me think what I am doing seems
to be wrong. It’s right.
So why do I fight
with my inner blogger?
I wonder if I was happier before I started blogging, and cannot recall.
I know I was less productive – and had more time to read, which I love.
Now I write and read blog posts and write about improving blog post and read blog posts about blog posts and write blog posts about blog posts and read and write and write some more and feel like I am going nowhere and wasting my time
I am happier that I have
And even though I seem to have a love-hate relationship with blogging,
I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Or so I say.
Do you blog? Have you ever felt this way? Let me know in the comments, please.
And please check out my new page, Poetry Blogs, to post a link to your favourite blog. Or your own. Or both! 😀