My Love-Hate Relationship With Blogging

I seem to have a love-hate relationship with blogging.

I am not unique; I know others feel this way, too.

Sometimes I read so many posts by others,  that I think  I am slogging

Through them, wishing I was being more productive and true

To myself.

To you.

The truth is, I love blogging, but it is very time-consuming

and I don’t always know if I am using

my time well.

Time will tell.

I look at others’ success,

and think

my blogs are a mess.

But then I wonder, who am I fooling?

Do I want people to start drooling

at the sound of my name?

Do I really want that type of fame?

No.

Why?

I like moving at my own pace.

In time, others will recognize my face

and my talents

and my desires

and my hopes

and my dreams

and my goals

and then fires

will be lit

and books won’t be burned

and though

the internet

is filled with holes

I won’t be spurned

for abandoning this blog

Because I won’t.

I am still learning about myself as a blogger.

I don’t consider myself a newbie any longer.

But this blog has no readers, and

I hate that I get caught up in numbers and stats.

Face it, facts are facts.

I have few readers because I am new, and don’t spend time marketing this blog. I don’t like screaming NOTICE ME.

You see?

I am like a little ant who is dead

and waiting for other ants to carry me off…

But this is not how blogging works.

Or life, either…

I cannot compare myself to bloggers who have been around for years.

I will reduce myself to tears.

I don’t have any fears or dreams

that make me think what I am doing seems

to be wrong. It’s right.

So why do I fight

with my inner blogger?

I wonder if I was happier before I started blogging, and cannot recall.

I know I was less productive – and had more time to read, which I love.

Now I write and read blog posts and write about improving blog post and read blog posts about blog posts and write blog posts about blog posts and read and write and write some more and feel like I am going nowhere and wasting my time

and

yet

I am happier that I have

let

myself

feel

again.

And even though I seem to have a love-hate relationship with blogging,

I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Or so I say.

YOUR TURN:

Do you blog? Have you ever felt this way? Let me know in the comments, please.

And please check out my new page, Poetry Blogs, to post a link to your favourite blog. Or your own. Or both! 😀

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Hi. I'm Lorraine Reguly, owner of Wording Well and Laying It Out There. I'm an English teacher-turned-freelancer-for hire, an author, and an entrepreneur. I offer 4 different services on Wording Well: 1. Writing. 2. Editing. 3. Coaching/Consulting, 4. Author Assistant Services. I like helping others and want to help you! Just tell me how!

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